On the train

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A young girl was reading what looked like a rapper’s crime novel. The book’s title ended in the letters, “II,” denoting its predecessors, and all in the same font of that 1998 Juvenile album cover, bejeweled. 

Another girl, maybe 27 and definitely cute, was reading Chronicles of Narnia. She has a wreath sitting on her green tights. 

Others have magazines and newspapers, a few catch their reflection in the window between stations. The rest stare into their phones moving tiny digital gems and candies around one another, or endlessly running, jumping, and ducking a smaller self towards no end.

Maybe it’s just loneliness in me, that inherent longing we have to be connected, but I feel love when I see them. Sitting their doing their thing, being people. In our silence, I feel like I know them in some way, and I am so happy they have interests and something to do in between here and there. So, without much to go on, I give them all vague personalities, and my favorites get back stories and conflict.

The guy now staring at his phone, while his thumb hovers, is deciding how to make his girlfriend’s day. He wants her to feel special. He wants her to be excited to see him, and he imagines himself lifting her up when he walks in the apartment later that night. In his imagined future, his girlfriend loses herself in him as her feet dangle above his shoelaces. But really, for two months now, he’s been walking in to an empty apartment. Standing there, in the moment before he turns on the light, he finds himself relieved. He guesses that he’s happy to avoid the inevitable fighting. After grabbing a snack and turning the TV on, he throws pieces of popcorn to the dog. During commercials, for forty-five seconds at a time, he thinks about what she might be doing, then throws popcorn at a waiting dog.

There’s a couple sitting close to one another. She’s 48 but looks older. The husband is turning 56 this weekend, and they’re back in New York to celebrate. Each of them have visited once before, separately, back when they were just teenagers. Now half a lifetime and a eye blink later, his hand is in his wife’s lap. She cups it with both of hers, looking terrified in a way that is almost calm. It’s a look worn into her face after decades of stress and worry, years spent imagining the worst and getting the expected. His hand sits there, neither of them thinking about it. The look and the hand, it’s who’ve they become together. They’re on their way downtown, to see Ellis Island and look up the great grandfathers and mothers who sat on a boat with cupped hands. They’re uncomfortable in this city, constantly looking at the map on the train’s wall behind them, second guessing navigation. But they are here, and when they leave the trip will be perfect. Their grown-up children will be comforted knowing their parents are in love and they’re busy. Back at home, the husband and wife will sit together while Al Rocker does a bit in Battery Park on their living room screen. An out of focus Statue of Liberty will stare into the camera from behind Al, while the husband puts his hand in her lap and slips his fingers between hers without a word.

A man in his early thirties, with an over-sized Letterman jacket on, plays a game on his phone that is too young for him, while a thin younger woman in a pencil skirt looks over his shoulder, her head tilted back out of his periphery. But he sees her, or doesn’t have to. The game is better shared, and he trusts her to watch. He dies, and in a second, she shrinks just a bit. The game restarts and she inches forward, almost forgetting her anonymity. I forfeit mine, smiling.

Same | Sane

Roommates: Chelsea & Zach.

Love these dudes.

James in the Garment District.

Aaron outside of work.

BMC Team Machine SLR01 x #Phetus

Traction control, off.

James Nord, New York, US

Some of the highlights that got packed for an upcoming week of snow in Lake Placid, NY.

Stay Alive by Jose Gonzalez

I’ve been starting and ending my days with this.

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James Nord and a rockslide.

Fog on the Williamsburg Bridge

jamesnord:

Dylan last night after the Peleton Photo Annual launch at the Rapha Cycle Club

The kids sit there. From tiny plastic chairs, with giant eyes, they hear they can be whoever they want, they can have whatever they want. And I think I want to grow up to be all of them. And I wish we told them they are everything they want, they have it all. And I wonder what they’d want us to be. Astronauts and doctors, lawyers and professional athletes, the sandbox, the chalkboard, the folded, hand-written notes, the questions, not the answers.

cycleangelo:

DEUX NORTH #HUNTERPROJECT
"As I was crossing the George Washington Bridge towards New Jersey for the x-hundreth time, there was that quiet again—that peace. The view of the Hudson River from the GWB bike path will never, ever, get old. Most of the time, I just peek back at the incredible Hudson river and say to myself, "damn." But that day was a special occasion. The sight is just that incredible; you need to get off your bike and take it all in once in awhile. I did just that halfway through the bridge on that July 4th morning. Life in the Big Apple can get pretty chaotic at times, and it’s really easy to feel trapped. But for a brief moment, as I stood there on that bridge, alone, with no one in sight, for the first time in a long time - I felt free.

See more of my photos and read more of my words on the Deux North Hunters page.